Thanks for all your concerns :DDD i'm currently , fine , but not fine .



lost one most important thing that all teenagers desire . that is freedom .
sorry that i have to cancel all our dates with you all , i'm really sorry . i have no choice . despite all the things that have happen-ed i couldnt bring myself to blame anyone except me . although , some people are at fault too . i keep protecting you, because i dont want you to get hurt . just because of me . you understand ? but sometimes , being a child of the family , i cant do anything . i'm sorry . one thing that i really dont understand is , i have never cried for you before . i admit . but now , i actually cried for you . everytime when i listen to the songs . it reminds me of you . seeing our pictures in my head . those happy moments. i really felt that someone actually do love me . and that person is you . you made me feel loved . and i really appreciated it . theres alot of things that i want to do now, but i cant bring myself to do it . the only taste i've been tasting these past few days is salt . sighs . why must tears be so salty ? cant they be sweet ? then maybe i'll enjoy crying . cause its sweet :D okay , i'm being gross now . how can tears be sweet when people produce them when they're sad . =/ i actually realised something , when you cry at night , you actually can sleep really soundly and sweet aft that . teeth pain , because of the seperator that was put in them last night . cant bite things . = / sad huh ? emotionally , pain . physically , pain . when will this end ?

P.S tears falling while writing this . = / cant even play a proper 7 hand poker with bingru . i'm sorry , cause of my blur vision that is caused by tears , i cant react properly . dui bu qi . =/