Sighs =/
alot of things are happening now . and its all up to me to change everything =/ now , what i need to faith and trust . i need to believe in myself . idk whether this would last anot . i'm really confused now . that people are putting things into my head . and i'm stuck all alone in my own world . dont dare to get out , as people are ready to get me . =/ do you know how does it feels like being watched ? you all have to go to the extent to employing a P-eye ? on saturday i alrdy felt somebody was watching us . -.- but i didnt say anything =/ sighs . how long will this carry on ? can this end like soon ? i dont want people to get hurt . i know that you all have big networks and can easily ruin people's life . i'm trying my best to help you . i'm really sorry , if i cant do anything . but what i can say is , through this 1++ years , i really love you . and however you scold me , or left me alone , i didnt leave . because i always give in to you . & sometimes i feel like you're taking it for granted . but i think it in a positive way . i'll try my best to protect you for now . & i hope that you wouldn't betray me . See you in 2 years time . i'm sorry .